Pain, no people'll understand

Assalammualaikum, hello barakallah to all readers . 

have been long been quiet in making new entry.. im to happy, sad and lot pain have been face. As all readers know , now im study at Universiti Putra Malaysia campus Bintulu. fuhh!! lots of assignment and program ergh!! all that program just down my pointer now .. Subahanallah what a bad time management i ve done ... so for those sis n bro are getting to new level study after spm .. please manage u time during uniLife goodly . but what for this entry i would like to share is the pains are really hard to said when u re too care about him/her what i try to said "dear, sometimes it feel too jealous and painful ... how u treats me compare u girls friend its hard to said n share with u.. i don't wanna force u, but can't u try understand me sometimes .. i still can except all u reason "LAZY" "I DON'T KNOW" and everything when i ask people around me the way u treats me all people around me still said the same thing "he love u but he just don't want to show off to u" "he care about u" and everything .. but i just don't understand as what i told u before dear ... u re my first true love .. i had never fallen love as too much like know same as my love to my dad .. please just done ridicule this feeling .. but if u did that i just hope one find day u will not do the same thing to other girls and hopefully u will change. But i don't know u still not my Ajnabi... but thanks  a lot for the past few days for our first meet and dinner last day .. hahaha i can see how lot and much u eat.. kuat makan rupanya dia ni!! haha but what none the less u wanna follow me for my coming trips with roommate to Miri... haha maybe i can see that actually u still care and protect me .. but whatevers dear..

thank you sayang ,, love u amirul azizi abdullah .

barakallah,